How to get a Carrie-Harem.

Hey, I promised you my how to right? You know I'mma deliver.. just had to wait for the right inspiration. The right inspiration came to me when this morning when someone got eliminated from my harem. I'll tell that story later.

For the sake of words, but not to insult your intelligence... A harem has many definitions.. Most prominent perhaps being the women in a Muslim household. Damn those muslims.. they get all the fun. In the animal kingdom, a harem is a group of women belonging to a male. The male denies other males access to this group.

That being said, a Carrie-harem, is my group of females. [[NOT my platonic female relationships]].. These females are NOT my girlfriends, though ex-girlfriends whom I'm still cool with are included in my harem. They are girls I like and flirt with basically... I've had a sexual relationship with less of them than you think I have. Very picky about who I let get this good stuff ;) I realize that I sound like an asshole, guess what? I am. It's a dog-eat dog world. I don't mislead or take advantage of anyone. I always tell people, I'm not gonna sell you no pipe-dreams, if you're not going to be my girlfriend, you're not going to be my girfriend.. That being said.. There are many advantages to having a harem. Women are beautiful, loving creatures and if they think highly enough of you, they'll do anything for you. I'm not just looking for sex from these young women, sometimes just someone to talk to, catch a movie with or fuuuckk.. LOL

That being said..


**Presenting steps to get a successful Carrie-Harem**

1. Figure out what you DON'T like. Process of elimination works in many situations. You'll be able to weed out a lot of chicken-heads, gold-diggers and hood-rats. No one wants a trash-harem.

2. Figure out who YOU are. Women like confidence, and won't walk all over you if you don't let them.

3. Don't let 'em know your mission... How you look comin up to a girl saying 'you wanna be part of my harem?' I'd look at you like you had 2 necks. Just be cool about. It TALK to her. LISTEN to what she has to say.

4.DO NOT sell pipe-dreams. You don't need somebody fallin in love with you if that ain't what you tryna do. Don't tell her she wifey material, you love her, you want her kids.. none of that bullshit. Save the lies. This is also a good way to eliminate who you DON'T want. If a woman wants to be wifed up, she is NOT harem-material.

5. Figure out who ya potential girl is, what she likes... what she doesn't like. If she sees you care.. she'll wanna be on your team. Women want to be protected, appreciated, and sexed good. LOL

6. Keep it light and fun. Movies, dancing, ice cream.. Shit like that. Don't take her to no funeral or no shit like that. LOL

7. Phone-numbers, myspaces, facebooks... get all of her info. It's important to be able to communicate with her at multiple times and in multiple ways.. This is the age of technology, keep up!

8. Respect whatever standards she sets for herself (within reason). Respect is very important. Women like it.

9. If you go into this only wanting sex, a woman will recognize that.. and guess what, asshole? They don't like it when someone only wants they pussy. Go for the mind, first.

10. Do NOT let the members of your harem at the same place at the same time! If they are, be cool about it.. If its at a club, dance with both of 'em at the same time. Neither one of them are your girlfriend right?

Aiight, 10's a good number. Whatchu think?

Song of the Day: Universial Mindcontrol Common

-C

The story of Carrie's Burn...

Hello.

Yall know I love to give tips and shit right? Word to the wise, please do not smoke weed while you drunk. It is a sure fire way (no pun intended) to get ya ass burned. I burned the FUCK out of my finger last night. Was holding the blunt in between my fingers and my drunk ass just runs my hand down the blunt like the end ain't on FIRE. I said 'shitfuckdamn!'It hurt, but I was drunk so it was ok. Ran my hand under some cold water and then proceeded to McDonalds.





Oh, So... I'm sure I've mentioned this before but once I get some alcohol in me, I get real confident. There's this girl I been peepin that works at the McDonalds on campus. So for whatever reason I hit on her hard last night. She was entertained. I told her that I wasn't just doing it cause I was drunk. She gave me her number... and guess what its her real number to! LOL

Well, I'm home for the summer, gonna be a lazy bum for the rest of this week then get to work. Peace-n-Love 2 u.


Song of the Day: "I do" 98 degrees [don't ask]
-C

Prequel to Carrie-Harem/Singers and Actors.

Hello

Song of the Day- "Bills, Bills, Bills" Destiny's Child [the original Destiny's Child... the four of 'em.. LOL]

Anywho, I kno yall tired of me putting the song of the day up front but they are necessary for my discussion topics. Before I get into what I want to say let me first say that I think that Destiny's Child new and old versions are the shit. I grew up on 'em. Sang "Bills Bills Bills" to my daddy as a little girl. [He couldn't pay my Bills... another story for another day... whoo... I just felt child-hood bitterness.. that is not a good color on me.. ] Anywho, ignore the brackets.. I love Destiny's Child... and I love Beyonce as a solo artist. She's a hell of an entertainer. "If I were a Boy" is one of the only songs that can get tears outta me.

That being said, I went to go see "Obsessed" on Saturday. Now, it was a good movie. But I think the it would've been a better movie if they would've got an actress to play Beyonce's part instead of a singer. I don't think its fair that just because someone can sing good that they can be an acctress.. There are some double threats out there.. Mos Def is a hell of an actor, Bobby Brown can act... Who else... um... Jamie Foxx.. but he's a special case.. also surprisingly Sean "PuffDaddy, P. Diddy, Diddy" Combs is a good actor to. I was impressed with Rasin in the Sun.. hell, he should do that instead of rap... Anywho... I say all this because it's unfair that Beyonce can be the star of a movie and Nia Long can't make an album..

Beyonce was over-acting and if it hadn't been for Idris Elba carrying her then the movie woulda been wack. I understand they put B in that role to put asses in seats but.. she's not an actress.. she IS getting better but she's not Nia Long, Sannaa Lathan or Angela Bassett on their worse days.. that movie would been the SHIT if they woulda got an actress to play that part...

My homo-friend got mad at me when I told him this. I mean, why do gay men feel such an obligation to Britney, Beyonce and Tyra? These Divas aint concerned about them! He told me that he just watched the movie for the fight scene and wouldn't have went to go see it if an actual actress would've played B's part.... Way to support your black actors and actresses, asshole.

Anywho, I'm moving on to a newsubject. Never been good at transitions..

Now, as I mentioned before I'm done with school.. still in Louisville for now.. I'm originally from Lexington and of course I'm going home for the summer. I was gonna take classes but fuck that...
I'm always joking with yall about my harem of women... but there's truth to every joke. I'm not a whore or anything but I do have a black book. For some reason, they've all been blowing up my phone like they know I'm about to come home. My friend Lovie says they got radar on my ass... I wouldn't put it past 'em..

That being said, there are certain things in the gay community that are acceptible that I can't get with.. For one, don't EVER call me 'Daddy' I dunno why I hate it but I do. Grosses me out. [[In case you don't know, gay women call the dominant one "daddy" sometimes and its supposed to turn 'em on]] Me and Lovie joke about this all the time and I told her today "I hate being called daddy, but I kinda feel like him.." she said "How so?" I said "cause daddy needs to come home!" LOL

So, I was telling my closet-homo-friend about my "Lexington-Booty" as they are so lovingly named.. and he said "I need to take your class.." so I'm like "What?" He was like "You pimpin all over KY"... Needless to say, I was very amused by this... I told him that I'd put a powerpoint together...

So.. Next entry? How to get Carrie-Harem

;)

-C

Bigger than hip-hop? Nothin!

Hello..

I know I usually do the Song of the Day at the end but I just gotta do it up front.. "Juicy" by the Notorius B.I.G.

I been on my hip-hop shit lately. See, I chose to write my last essay on the influence of Hip-Hop on America's youth. Deep right? I know. If you wanna read... lemme kno. Did I mention I love Hip-Hop so much? I'm a product of it. "Juicy" just gieves me an indescribable feeling. I can't necessarily relate to everything Biggie has gone through. But his shit is real and yall already know how I feel about realness. Thats what I love so much about real hip-hop.. Talking about shit that really happens and rhyming to... Same reason I hate current hip-hop.. what the FUCK is souljah boy talking about?

I think Lil Wayne is slowly making his way to legendary status. It took him awhile to get there. When he was with CashMoney he was in the shadow of rappers that had way less talent. He was going nowhere... but when he got away from them he became a monster... a giant of a rapper. He's sick. Now, I don't know why all yall ladies think he's so sexy.. the nigga got a face only a mother could love.. But he does have swag.. takes more than that for me to be attracted.

Oh and don't even get me started on Lauryn...

So... I'm pretty much done with my first year of college. I can't believe it. I've grown so much, learned so much about myself. Made great friends. I'm ready to go home though. This shit was stressful and I deserve a break.. even though I know I won't have one. I will miss Louisville and I'm already excited about what next year holds. I've realized that I'm a big girl. I'm becoming a woman and I can see myself living without my mother and stuff like that.. Its scary but good to know...

Oh yea, I'm officially a smoker. I wanna quit, cause I'm about to go into a intense weight-loss thingy this summer and smoking ain't gonna fit in with that.. but that nicotine just does me so right. It's like a kiss on the neck when I'm stressed. A couple of my good male friends really want me to quit. I hold their opinions in high esteem most of the time so that's really motivating me. Told me that ciggarettes lead to crack... LOL, at the rate i'm going, i'll be at the trap soon cause I just smoked 3 ciggarettes while outside with Mo. I'm a very social smoker. I always smoke another if someone comes up and lights one up.

Well(p), I'm hungry.

-C

Pocket-sized

Hey sweets.. bare with me.. writing on my mom's mini-lap top, its condensed and my hands are too big.. so i'mma write till i get frustrated.. lol

I'm almost done with my first year of college! I cant believe it and i'm sad to be going home cause i've made some good friends in the short time i've been here. I've learned so much about myself and i'm pretty proud of who I've become. Hoping and praying I grow even more.

Tryna figure out what I wanna do this summer. I kno I wanna make a lot of money... well.. enough to buy my blazer. Notice, i said mine.. I've already claimed it! What God has for me is for me!

Well, guess i should get some sleep...

Song: Lemme get that- Rhianna

-C

Strip Club

Chyyyeaaaa....

Yes. I go to the strip club. This is my strip club entry, if you are offended by me calling it a strip club, or referring to them as strippers, might wanna click the X.

So this college and laryngitis phenomenon had be a bit stressed today. My boy made me go to the booby bar with him. Yes.. Made me.. I love naked women but I would've been perfectly listening to old Mary J Blige jams with an inhaler in my right hand and a gun in my left. Glad I got out of the house tho. Anywho, me and him are sitting by the main stage.. Wait.. lemme back up. We name all the girls by their tattoos, there's "Dragonfly" [dragonfly on her back], "Eyes" [eyes on her back], "Fuck-you" [yes, this bitch got fuck you tattooed on her ass], "Hebrew" [she has some hebrew shit her sides]... yea.. there's many more. We don't bother learning names, we don't have that kind of time....


Anywho, we sitting front-stage and this girl has some kind of writing on her ass.. Now, I'm blind and its smokey and dark in there but he nudges me and says "Is that scripture?" and I'm like "No idiot, she's a stripper and it's on her ass.."... So, my curiousity starts getting the best of me.. and I throw a dollar at her so I can see her tat closer. Didn't get a good look.. So then she goes to the other side and starts dancing... and my boy says "That says Psalms.." I'm like "the hell it does.." so HE throws a dollar at her and I get a good look this time..

This bitch had Psalms 12:2 tattooed on her ass...

Idk whats worse, getting scripture on your ass, being a stripper with scripture on your ass, or me throwing a dollar at you to get a closer look..

You be the judge.

But yea, before that.. I got a lap dance from "Dragonfly" she told me she was gonna molest me. She stepped on my crotch, i was entertained.. but not aroused. Good times.

So.. I'm naked.. I just realized I hate my boobs. I don't wanna be a DD cup anymore.. Back to the gym.. chhyyeea!

Oh yea..

Song: "Seventeen" MusiqSoulchild [Aiijuswanaseing]

-C

Laryngitis aka Sick -n- shut in

Hello.

Audience, I don't get sick. I'm invincible.

NOT!

I have fucking laryngitis! I mean, really? Just my 'luck'. I don't just get colds and shit, I always get bronchitis, laryngitis! Some -itis! Something in me always wants to get inflamed! Swear, it only happens around every 3 years, and the stress of college and me kissing everyone on the mouth probably didn't help. My voice is gone. I sound horrible, my throat hurts bad and up until a couple of hours ago, I was congested like... Bad. It all started out as a cold when the temp dropped last week, then I had a concert and sung my lungs out.. so thats probably where the laryngitis came in..

So, I go to campus health on Monday morning.. I hate going to the doctor because I don't like being poked and prodded, so you know its bad for me to tell myself I have to go. I mean, I was tried of sweating through my sheets... anywho, I get back there and get tested for strep, flu, syphillys and aids.. [not joking.. lol] all of those are negative.. Thank GOD.

So, the doctor tells me I have laryngitis.. she doesn't say acute or chronic.. I'm guessing chronic cause she said I'll be in bed for 2 weeks (YEA RIGHT!).. Next thing I kno I'm on a breathing machine. I was mad, that is not G behavior.. But anything to get the voice right for the laaadiiiess...

So, My mother came and got me and took my sick-feverish grown ass home. I'm not on an inhaler, sudafed, orangejuice... a netti pot and anything that will keep my temperature down. the congestion is improved greatly. i'm ready to go back to school and finish out my first year of college with an effing bang.. Chyyyeaaa

So kids, wish I felt like talking about something deep and profound, but I'm all drugged up. So it ain't happenin! haaaaa


Song of the day: Get 'em High- Kanye West [college drop out]

-C

Lame!

Hello loves..

This is perhaps the earliest time I've ever wrote a blog. I have to be in class in 18 minutes.. but that's plenty of time.

I effing love Ray Charles. Call me old, but I'm listening to "Hit the Road Jack".. this song is so dope and I don't even know what it is about the song.. It's just dope as hell.

So, I'm still sick, woke up at like 3 this morning feeling HORRIBLE. I would've gone to the ER if I had a car or the energy to call someone. I sweated through my sheets, I was congested so I couldn't breath through my nose, and my throat was swollen. Thank goodness I don't have tonsils! I vaguely remember walking down the hall to blow my nose... I came back, took some meds then turned on some relaxing music. It helped. I'm not in pain anymore, but I'm still a bit congested. What do I have? It ain't the flu... cause I'm still able to do regular shit.. but when I sleep, I be dead to the world!

So, I was sitting in my english class the other day and realized that this is perhaps the lamest group of people I've ever had the displeasure of being in the presence of. I laughed to myself cause it was funny...lol... I mean, this one dude in particular.. be talking about comic books and shit... I mean, dude.. you gotta be on your way to 20.. you too grown to be comparing batman the comic to batman the movie. There are some people you can tell don't get any pussy at all... I on the other hand, have a harem of women.. just joking ;)

Well, guess I better go get this 'ish off the printer and make my way to class...

-C

A contender!

Chyyyeeaaa!!!

This week is Black Diamond and Porter week on campus. Shout outs to all my Diamonds and Porters <3

So last night me and some of the Diamonds went to Bates to hear Pastor Watson (St. Paul.. Richmond, Va) and he had a word for us! He talked about the story of David and Goliath. He had the whole church gone! His title was "They were wrong about you." It was a wonderful sermon. I was very blessed, and I needed it. Thanks Rev!

I'm listening to "Spirit of God" by Youthful Praise, Black Diamond is singing this (Come to our concert Sunday.. shameless plug) it's such a beautiful song. I'll post it when I learn how.. LOL

Well, seems that I'm getting sick, I never get sick. This sucks. Probably help if I stop smoking... Ugh...

Write more later.

-C

Relationships & Love Part 2

Hello.

I'm slow with my sequels.. But hey, its cause I don't force anything. I just let it flow. I must have inspiration in order to to write.. You can find part one of this series under March 1st's entry. Its about the (lack of) connection between love and sex. It's a good read. Though, it isn't necessary to read part one to understand part 2. Well, hell.. maybe it is.. cause you have to understand my opinion of the whole phenomenon in order to get part 2... hell, do whatcha want...

I was having a discussion with a friend of mine, we hadn't talked in a while and I was updating her on my life and the harem of women i'm always involved with (joking... or am i?). We first met in December and I had just got out of a relationship with whatsherface and I was like fuck love and fuck sex to! Plus, I had decided to be celibate until I found 'the one'. She was VERY impressed and was also celibate so she always encouraged me to not give in to physical temptation if you will..

Today church, my topic in this series will be The Un-natural-ness of Monogamy now, let me first say that I'm not talking about weather monogamy is right or wrong... i'm talking about how natural it is for a person to want to have sex with just ONE person. I think we all have the wrong attitude about monogamy. I'm not advocating infedility.. but think about it.. there's a LOT of it. We crucify people who are unfaithful like there's something wrong with them. [[I just realized that there's no connection from my topic to the situation mentioned above with my friend... I'll bring it all together eventually.. be patient..lol] If there are sooo many people that have sex with someone other than who they're in a committed relationship with, why do we treat them like they have some disease?

My ex always accused me of having "The wandering eye syndrome" it didn't make me mad. I didn't disagree. I was in love with her. Didn't want to be in a relationship with anyone but her. But why should I avert my eyes if the girl walking down the street's ass looks GREAT in those jeans? Yea ladies.. I know what you thinking 'how disrespectful'... @@! Whatever! I'm WITH you, you are my girlfriend, I made a commitment to you and no ass is gonna come in between that! I never get jealous when the object of my affection gets "W.E. syndrome" because whoever they looking at isn't ME... It ain't about if they look better, have a better mind or whatever.. if I call you mine.. the difference between me and them is that they can't feel the same way about you that I do.. cause when I get gone off someone? I'm totally all the way GOONNEE..lol

Anywho..

I was telling my friend [mentioned above] about these 2 girls I'm 'talking' to.. I said something along the lines of "Girl#1 has already used up her 3 strikes, so she can't be my girlfriend.. but I could still probably fuck her." Then she was like "No! You're not supposed to be having sex.." and I was like "Ever?"... she was like "Till you find that right one.." I'm sure you can guess what I did next... I rolled my eyes.

I'm so tired of this fairy tale fantasy bullshit that women talk about... Fairytales are great.. But the thing about that is, I live in the REAL world.. [[and I'm not talking about MTV's version either.. cause that ain't real either. ]].. I'm not saying that I've given up hope on finding 'the one' but I think its kind of rediculous for me to deprive myself of physical pleasure just because I haven't met 'em yet. Life is short! and I like orgasms! Yall already know that I'm all for masturbation... but I'm all for not wasting my energy either... [Go green..]

If I can get an orgasm and not use my energy? Why stop? Plus, I like being next to someone.. Baby monkeys who don't have contact with another monkey die... Touching someone else is very important for our mental health.. But you know whats NOT necessary for mental health... a relationship! LOL..

I asked her why couldn't I find someone... go get tested with them.. and just have sex with 'em? Everyone isn't relationship material.... Everyone ain't fucking material. You're lucky if you find someone who is relationship AND fucking material.. but whats so bad about finding someone and agreeing that yall's relationship is simply physical, yall don't want a commitment.. and yall just have sex... kinda like a workout?

Am I too open-minded?

I think relationships are beautiful. I'm a very affectionate person and I'm not a relationship-phobe... I do want to get married and have 2.5 kids.. and I'm also not against monogamy.. I think thats beautiful as well. My grandparents have been married for like 50 years.. and you know what came from that union? ME! lol.. so monogamy and committed relationships are beautiful.. I just think that while I'm young, I should be able to get some practice in...

Or am I just greedy and a horny-toad? you be the judge...

I wish eros would send me a nymph...

-C

Reality TV alternatively titled: Boniqua & Karma: episode 1

Happy Resurrection Day!

I was just sitting at my desk and thought 'its a great time to write a blog'. Me and my bestie/madre did a video blog on Saturday. It's quite entertaining. We discussed Cassie's haircut. Veiw it here..




Hope you enjoyed.. we made one about reality TV to.. but it's twenty minutes long so we'll have to do some editing.

Went to church for the first time in 2 weeks today. So refreshing. Long ass sermon. Made me sleepy.. but Bless Him anyhow.

Guesss I can talk about reality TV now.. LOL.. Now, I'm a part of generation Y. A PROUD part of generation Y... but Reality TV is just getting a bit rediculous. It all started with Real World. I loved real world when it came out. I still do love it.. but MTV, yall have came out with some ignant ass seasons.. Austraila, Paris.. and this past Boston? Not cute. I loved back to New York, Chicago and Nawlins tho. I guess we can't have it all.

Don't get me started on this 'love' show phenomenon.. The Flavor of Love has been daddy and grandaddy to many shows.. I love New York, Real Chance of Love, Charm School... I understand what Musiq mean when he said "Love... so many people use your name in vain'' that shit ain't about LOVE! It's very sexual.. (Chardonay's banana split switched my bloodflow from my brain to my... well.. you get the picture)...

I think that we as American's need to raise the standards of things that will entertain us... I have my own guilty pleasures.. but.. lets do better guys.

What do you think about reality tv's take over?

-C

Trees.

Alright, so the nightmares haven't stopped.. they're in full color but they don't scare me as much. I love sleep, nothing will keep me from that. i'mma just put pleasent things in my mind and pray before i go to sleep.

I think I met a girl *blush* she seems cool. Good conversationalist. She likes Lauryn AND Beyonce so she has brain. LOL. Has 2 little ones. I think I can deal with that. Yall kno Karma loves the kids. We plannin a trip down to the waterfront. If you ain't from Louisville, trips to the waterfront can get kids made. Real romantical. So i'm excited, hopefully we can make it happen sooner than later.

Anywho, me and my friend talking about Madea's tree theory (ya kno.. some friends are leaves, some are branches.. and the best kind are roots?) We talkin about how many people we don't even talk to since we graduated. I don't necessarily see that as a bad thing... cause if you a leaf.. you gonna blow in the wind anyway.. and in autumn leaves fall.. but in spring they grow.. so it works. I'm just tryna figure out who my roots are. I need the support yall. This college life is no joke. Make sure you know who yall real friends are.. and don't get too upset when I leaf falls.. its just the autumn of your life.. make sure you the type of tree that things can grow on. Don't be a barren one. Amen somebody?!

Ok, so I'mma do a song of the day every blog entry.. cause yall kno I always write to music.. so I want yall to kno what my soundtrack is... I need to make one and sell it for $7.43.. would you buy?

Song of the Day: Dream Big -Jazmine Sullivan (Album: Fearless)


Ok.. so, boutta read biology.. midnights a great time to start studying.. don't you agree?

Oh, and squirting is female ejaculation..I have once in my life.. and I was alone.

-C

Nightmares.

Salutations..

So, I've been having these nightmares lately... I can't really remember them. I just know they're in black and white.. well, not really black and white.. the color just has a gray tent to it.. anywho... they scare the holy hell out of me and I wake up and think I'm seeing shit in my room... I asked my mom about it.. She says I watch too many horror movies. But I love 'em and I'm not finna stop.. Plus horror movies don't scare me.... Second, it could be my medication.. but I've been taking that.. so...?.... I cleaned my room and threw letters and pictures away from my ex and I feel that the energy in my room is much better now. I haven't tried to sleep.. but I didn't know that stuff from that ignant excuse of a human was among me.. so.. i'll update you when i do try to sleep.

Lady Cards.. ya hurtin me.. I'm so proud tho..

Well, I think I'mma end it here. Cause I'm sleepy.. and I wanna be naked.. and I can't be on wood..

-C

SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I wanna blog.. but I'm lazy.. so I came across this survey about SEX and I figure.. what the hell.. It's a good conversation starter.. LOL.. This survey includes all of my sexual experiences [male and female].. I kno I'm about to feel real exposed... but what the hell.. People need to feel more open about SEX!!! This is my effort to make people stop being so damn pru-dish...





What is it that you absolutely need sexually? an orgasm.. thats always the goal

What is something you have always wanted to try? I've always wanted to tie a muhfucka up..

What is something you have never done in bed before? squirted.

What time of day do you like to have sex? dusk... who am i kidding.. sex is good any time of day! LOL

What do you absolutely need to see to turn you on? my partner bite their lip..

How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? puh-lease, my hands wander before the kiss.. ''please excuse my hands'' was once dedicated to me by my stripper friend... and there's an interesting story behind that.

If someone was in the next room while you had sex would it make you nervous or excited? Most likely excited unless it was a older family member..

Would it bother you if your bf/gf got naked at a beach or river? Yes.. thats how you catch Mad Cow disease..

Have you ever faked an orgasm? Yes, it was 3am and I wanted her to get the hell off me, I was sleepy.

What Part of your body are you self-conscious about? Oh, all of it. LOL

Do you have any sexual regrets? Yes.. ugh.

If a lover cheated on you would you take them back? Pending a negative STD test.. we could still fuck if the sex was good.. but they wouldn't be on my team.

How Important is sex in your life? Very.

How Important is love in your life? Ehhh.. not so much.

What is the biggest fight you have ever had with a bf/gf? When she threatened to commit suicide and I told her to go head. I was dead serious.

Do you believe in make-up sex? Yes.. It's great.

Have you ever told a complete stranger something you kept from a lover? Yep.

Have you ever had a one night stand? No.

Have you ever rebounded and known you were doing so? Naw, I never know I'm rebounding till after the fact.

Who did you lose your virginity to? Ya kno.. thats debateable..

When and Where did you lose your virginity? my bed-room... or his..

If you could go back in time would you change it or take it back? The virginity experience? Change it.

Would you go down on your bf/gf under a restaurant? HELL NO! Who do I look like? Ew..

Where would you have sex in public? A dressing room

Would you ever have sex while at work? Naw. I need the cheddar.

Would you have sex in the corner of a department store? No. Ew.

Would you have sex in the rain? Sure.

What movie makes you horny? Love and Basketball, Brown Sugar.. is it a coincidence that Sanaa Lathan is in both of those? LOL

What is the highest number of orgasms you have had in one sex romp? 3

How many do you wish you could have? Call me crazy, but I'd rather have 1 explosive one.. cause multiple ones are too little for me..

What do you like Trimed,Shaved or natural? It doesn't need to be out of hand... I like a clean workspace... so if you expect me to put my mouth on it.. there doesn't need to be any hair.. but I don't like it bald...

Would you have sex in a dressing room? Look above.

What sounds do you like to hear during sex? Let me tell yall one time I asked this girl to say my name.. She said it all sexy-like.. I almost nutted on myself..

What sounds do you make during sex? I'm usually pretty quiet.. when I get horny, I growl.. Never fails.. and when the orgasm is REALLY good.. I moan like a bitch.

What words do you love to hear during sex? None, sex ain't time for conversation!

What do you yell during an orgasm? "Don't Stop!"

How many times a week do you like to have sex? 2 or 3, I need something to de-stress.. but I don't want it so much that I get bored with you or sore..

Do you want to try the 69 position? I have. Don't like it.

What are your three fav. positions? I like being on the bottom, doggy-style.. and I like sitting on faces..

What are the top 3 erogenous zones on your body? My ears, behind my knees and my hips

Top or Bottom? Easier to make me cum if i'm on the bottom, but I can get my nutt on the top.

Bedroom or other room? bed-room.

Lights on or off? I don't want the lights on flourescent.. cause you gotta set the mood, but I don't want it pitch dark cause I'm visual.. I wanna see.

Public or Private? Private.. Ew.

Partially or Entirely naked? completely.. I can NOT cum if I have clothes on.. No joke.

Oil & Lotion or Candles & Egyptian Cotton Sheets? Oils and Lotion, I don't do candle wax..

Naughty Videos or Hott Photos? Videos.. fotos do nothing for me.

Lacy Panties/Silk Boxers or Leather? NAKED

Fast & Hard or Slow & Gentle? Slow and Hard.. mmmmm..

Standing up or Laying down? I can't cum if I'm standing.

Soft or Firm touch? a perfect blend of the 2.

Under Covers or On top? Depends.

Would you ever have sex in your childhood bedroom? Seeing as thats someone elses house now.. prolly No..

Have you ever hooked up on a swing set? LOL, No.

Is there any desire that you want to try that you think is taboo? Yea.

Any New Positions you havent done but want to try? Naw. Meaning I need to go back to the drawing board.

Do you have any sexual fetishes you want to explore? Naw.

Are there any secret desires you have never told? Naw.

Where in the house is your favorite spot to have sex? Kitchen counter or bathroom sink.

What is your favorite thing about sex? The opportunity I have to have complete control over someone's physical pleasure.. being the reason behind someone's extacy.. I love to be someone's drug.

What is your favorite sexual setting? My dorm-room, with soft music playing (like floetry or d'angelo), window open, blinds up and our only light is the street-lights outside.

Whats your Favorite position? Don't have one.

Would you ever work out nude? No.

Would you have sex on the bench press? Ooohh.. good idea.

Would you ever fool around in a movie theater? I would and have.

Would you ever make a porno with your bf/gf? I have.

Would you ever do a photo shoot in sexy clothes for your bf/gf? I have.

Do you think you need sex more or less often than the average person? More.

Who was on your mind while you did this survey? Strangley enough, myself. LOL naw seriously.. many people.. I ain't naming names.

Lonely.

Hey hey...

Someone put a baroque channel on my pandora. How lame.. LOL

Anywho, been a pretty eventful weekend so far. Went to the Pink Drag Show on campus last night. It was the bomb! Shout outs to Vickie, JuJu, and Cory.. they were hott! Afterwards I went out with Asshole, Aaron and Dustin.. all whom have been mentioned in previous entries. We had a pretty good time. It was a lil warehouse party. BYOB, my friends the ladykillers were Djaying. They are the damn bomb!

I had 2 epiphanys last night..

wait.. do you spell the plural of epiphany with a -ys or -ies?

The first one happened as I was sitting outside the warehouse trying to cool off. I was smoking a ciggarette. I don't smoke those so I must've tapped into some hidden wisdom via the nicotine. I realized that people are sooo fake... and I don't mean just superficial.. I mean, we allow certain things about ourselves to define our personalities... and I will use myself as an example because it's very true that the things we hate in others are our own flaws as well. For example, just because I'm black, doesn't mean.. (lemme think of a stereotype...) I have to eat watermelon... or just because I'm 'gay' doesn't mean I have to dress like a dude.. I used to feel this way because of a chick I was with that was sooo into my 'masculinity' that really didn't exist. I was putting up a front for her... I lost myself for a minute. I had to realize that I was a WOMAN. I have 38DD's and I come on my period every month. I had to get a grip on reality.

I'm writing this because there are those very close to me that let things like their sexuality and relationships define them and it hurts because they're forcing themseleves to be something that they are not. I went into the friendships because of the things I like about them.. and now they are changing.. I don't take it as a personal insult.. I just want my friend back.. dig? I think thats why I feel kind of down today...

I just wanna be alone with my thoughts and feelings..

Ugh..

-C

Your level of consideration: The gay prom story.

Hello.

I feel like you're my family. Whoever's reading right now, I miss you when I don't write. Thanks for reading my thoughts. Thanks for comments, keep them coming.

Anywho, we had 'gay' prom tonight on campus. Now, from my understanding.. it's supposed to be a second chance prom for those people who felt that they couldn't go to their proms because they were gay. I think that if you missed out on your own prom tryna be rebellious or for whatever reason, you stupid and should've just went with ya man or ya woman. I think that what gay people have to realize is that there isn't a 'gay' world and a 'straight' world.. it's just earth and we all have to live here together. Find your way to function in society just like every minority group in the past has. We all gotta live here, its 2009. Homophobe's will get over ya gay asses just like racists got over niggas... if they don't get over it, at least they'll eventually die.. LOL

And you can tell that white people came up with a gay prom... they ain't used to being discriminated against. Black gay kids go to prom however they want to.. white kids sit at home looking silly.. lol... ooohh.. am i stereotyping.. oops. LOL

Anywho, I'mma tell yall why I was feeling a bit salty tonight.
I was talking to this girl right? We'll call her... asshole.. [not to be confused with ignant-ass] anywho, I took her out to my favorite club a couple of weeks ago and I witnessed this girl asking for asshole's number.. now, I've never been one to cause I scene, and this other girl didn't even know that I brought asshole to the club with me. Let me explain something, whats mine is mine and I'm protective of her... Call me crazy, but I feel like if I brought you to the club with you, its cool for you to dance with whoever, but when it comes to exchanging number and excepting drinks? thats just plain disrespectful.

Anywho, so at this point I'm watching cause I want to see what kind of consideration level this girl has... she gives the girl her number and I'm standing 2 feet away!! At this point, in the back of my mind.. she just got X'd off the list of girls who can be on my team. But it was just the second time we went out and the first strike so I still talked to her.... because I believe in second chances..

Well, the shit hit the fan tonight...

She lied and told me that she gave the girl a 'fake' number AND played dumb when she showed up with this girl at prom tonight! I told her she must think I'm real stupid... then she claims that the girl found her on facebook.. let me pause and not get angry all over again..


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Ok..

Let me back up, I'm moving to fast.. I already knew that asshole was bringing a date to prom tonight. We had an argument about the prom in general last night (strike 2) then of ALL people she can flaunt in my face she brought the girl who was unconsiously stepping on my nutts at the club! (STRIKE MUTHAFUCKIN 3!!) What an asshole! Hence the name!

I feel very disrespected, I ain't mad.. because I looked too cute at prom tonight and the ladies were all over me. She was hatin and I'm glad. I told her that I know she knows I'm flyy and she ruined it by bringing an old dyke with a damn lesiure suit on to the gay prom.. I ain't mad.. I've moved on already...

Story about the new girl tomorrow..

-C