Hey babies.

Um. I don't like acronyms. But FML.. it ain't that deep. I just want to make some changes. For one, I want another job. Two, I was going to church this morning and realized I can't fit in any of my skirts. Now don't get it twisted, I like me. A lot. But I want to lose weight. Dunno how much. But I know I want to put a dent in it before I go back to school. If I can tackle it now I know it'll be easier once I get back...

Can't wait for that by the way... I need my own space.

So the plan is to consumer 1200 calories and walk 2 miles a day. Hopefully It'll work.

(My brother's putting my hair in a ponytail... not successful)

Ok, I can't concentrate... So I'mma do a song of the day and try later.

Song of da Day:: "Unbreakable" Alicia Keys.

-C

"I want something else, I want the stuff thats never enough.."

I'm feeling some kinda way yall.

One of my jobs fell through. I feel like I mentioned that before. Anywho, I'm looking for a new job, done submitted my resume everywhere. I'll have a job by next week. I speak it! It shall be!

So, my mom came home giving me mad fever about turning the AC on. Black people and their... blackness. I ain't on it. I left and went for a run. I was mad. I didn't want to disrespect my mother. She aint gonna talk to me like I'ma child either. My anger issues must be getting under control because I would've went off a couple of years ago. Or maybe I'm just in a numb state and don't give two shits. The latter is more likely... because lately I've been feeling angry. I hate living in this house. I need my own space. This woman-child cannot live with her mother for much longer. It ain't workin!

Reading E. Lynn Harris' "If this World were Mine" He's a great story teller. Loves that he gives us a view into the gay-world with out completely leaving out the straight one either. We all live here together. Contrary to popular belief, we exist together as well. Especially in the black community.

Listening to Robin Thicke's "Something Else" I think it's his newest album. This white boy jams. I like every song on this album so I can't pick one for the song of the day. But check it out.

Well, back to my reading. Not going out tonight. I want to be alone with my thoughts. Ever have one of them days?

-C

Movies.

Hey yall, One of my jobs didn't work out this summer. Damn recession. Oh well, you know I always gotta plan B and C.

So, I went to the movies last night to see Knowing... Hated it! It was a great premise for a movie but the climax sucked and the denoument was even worse. [I'm way analytical. Like my ex-girlfriend, you'll have to get over it ;)] It was so not a sci-fi flick to me then at the end some damn pedophile aliens just wanted the kids to be on some Adam and Eve shit. Not cute.

Then I went to see Haunting and Connecticut... Now, I'm not racist.. But white people just do some stuff I don't understand. I say this because it's based on a true story. The moment some funny shit was going on, I would've moved the hell out. The spirits only wanted someone to set them free, they were trapped in the house. They wouldn't have chased anyone. All they had to do was go to the Holiday Inn while ole boy was getting the cancer cured. But I guess that would've been a 15-minute movie? LOL

I love movies, I love reviewing them. Wouldn't mind being a critic. But I don't want to sit around and watch movies all day. I like to be entertained so thats probably why my critiques might get a little shitty.

Well, there's more I want to discuss, but this entry is sufficient for now.

tomorrow? men who need bigger testicles. [figuritively]

-C